The devotion for 7/28 in My Utmost for His Highest was really good. I seriously felt like it was written only for me!
For a very long time, I have had "visions" of myself in positions of leadership. I definitely see myself speaking to women. (does this ever happen to you? where you just get these pictures in your head of doing things you don't normally do?) I believe God could be giving me a glimpse of what is to come, but I'm not certain. I sometimes think I would love to be on staff at a church as a Director of Women's Ministry...sometimes I see myself doing something even more than that...sometimes I very clearly see myself traveling, speaking to groups of women, encouraging them in their faith by sharing with them the trials I have faced and what God is teaching me through them. I know for sure I have an overwhelming passion inside me for encouraging others--especially women in their roles as wives and mothers. I know I am "not there" yet. I struggled with pride for a long time, very honestly, and I do know now that God is still molding me, shaping me for His purposes. I have learned to wait on Him and trust His timing. I have learned that when I try to "force" circumstances, I do nothing to glorify God, really. But I have also experienced awesome times when I waited and felt God directing me to minister to a specific person. When I do that, God truly is glorified. When I remain humble and obedient, and allow God to use me where HE sees fit, that is when God's amazing power and love are truly demonstrated. I love seeing God at work through prayer. I love that He is constantly teaching me and increasing my faith. I LOVE telling other people how great God is by sharing the things He has done in my life. Nothing excites me more. Because I have felt these things, I have struggled with staying focused on the "right here and now" in front of me. I have been guilty of being restless and daydreaming about what I incorrectly think are more important things! I am much better than I used to be, but I do still struggle with being faithful in the little things--having a good attitude when my kids act up and submitting to my husband when I don't think he deserves it...you know, choosing to be obedient in the small, but HARD things...things only God can see and no one else is around to say "Wow! Good job! You are so faithful!" (please admit you might struggle with that too!)
Anyway, because I have often sensed that God could be preparing me for something big, I view most all of my circumstances as my "training ground". And that could be true to some extent, but this devotion I read gave me a little bit different perspective. I love it!