So yesterday I shared how much I love my journal and what all I like to write in it. Today, I really want to share just one little example as to WHY my journal means so much to me!
And I have to first reiterate--because I don't think I could say it enough--it BLOWS my mind how God actually takes the time to communicate with me-- teaching me, reassuring me, confirming things with me. I mean, He's GOD, for goodness sake! And I am just this "speck" in the universe!! I don't know of anything that humbles and excites me like recognizing when God impresses something on my heart AND then confirms it externally through my circumstances. Because I have become more aware of it, He is so much more real to me today than He was even a year ago. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt (and can PROVE!) that God is at work in my life every single day. It's not just something I wish for or hope for or listen to others talk about...I EXPERIENCE it for myself! I don't know about you, but I think that is an amazing privilege!
So the other night, I was looking over recent journal entries when a passage of scripture caught my eye. On October 5, I wrote out Psalm 121:8 "...the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore" which I found in a devotion from "God Calling". After looking up that verse and reading the entire chapter, I made myself a note to pray through Psalm 121 for Taylor as he was preparing to leave for basic training with the Coast Guard. I was nervous about him leaving home and I knew he was too, so I felt like this particular passage was perfect to pray. It was such a comfort to me, I knew God had led me to it!
I jumped ahead a few pages in my journal and noticed that on October 9, I thanked God for the late night text message I received from my son Taylor the night before. (At 11:00 he had texted me and asked that I come to his room so he could share something he read in his bible that he specifically told me was a comfort to him!) Can you guess where this is going? Yes, indeed, he had opened his bible to Psalm 121 and read it out loud to me. Is that cool??
My point is this...until I went back and looked through my journal notes, I had not made the connection. And you should know that I discovered this on a day when my heart was hurting because my son was gone. I kept praying, asking God to comfort me. That was all I could think of to pray, was "Comfort me". So when I realized the SAME passage I had made a note of in my journal was the SAME passage He led Taylor to in his bible, it felt like a warm, reassuring hug from my Savior. :)
Trust me, this is only one small example of literally hundreds I could share of God showing Himself faithful to me. And it illustrates so well why I believe it is important to slow down and take the time to pray and to even journal things we feel God laying on our hearts. I don't think we realize how many of the thoughts we have are actually "nudges" or promptings from the Holy Spirit to pray about those things.
I told my sister recently--and I know I've shared on this blog--that sometimes when I pray, I literally get goosebumps. It's like this confident feeling that what I am praying is not only pleasing to God, but also something that He has every intention of answering. Have you ever experienced that? I recently read this quote from Charles Spurgeon which helped me better understand why I sometimes get those "goosebumps":
"Only the prayer that comes from God can go to God. We must shoot the Lord's arrow back to Him. The desire that He writes on our hearts will move His heart and bring down a blessing."
~from Morning and Evening, October 8 evening devotion (which was the same night Taylor told me about Psalm 121 comforting him!)
I hope you will consider journaling your prayers and other things God puts on your heart if you don't already. It is so encouraging--especially on days when your faith is weak--to be able to flip through the pages and trace the fingerprints of God in your life.